[Roxie Writes]
June 16th  -  2 notes  -  J  Comments

Buy My Art

I created a Society6 page for my art just in case anyone is interested in having prints of their own. If you use the link above you will get free shipping for a limited time.

Thank you all for all of your support.

June 15th  -  2 notes  -  J  Comments

Today I received a portable desk easel from a very generous friend. I used it to finish my most recent painting, and it makes things much more comfortable. No more being hunched over my desk like Quasimodo. Haha!

I am not sure how I feel about the painting itself though. I’m trying to learn how to create without definite reference images and instead use images inside my head. It’s extremely challenging to get those images out of my head and onto the canvas (if you will).

June 11th  -  3 notes  -  O  Comments
Anonymous said:

How were you born with HIv?

My mother was HIV+ while pregnant with me, was unaware she was positive, and at the time there was no prenatal prevention of the transmission of the virus. How else?

June 9th  -  3 notes  -  O  Comments

I really fucking love my desk.

You never really appreciate having one until you spend two years writing a novel in your bed with a dog and a lover scattering your shit everywhere.

June 9th  -  21 notes  -  J  Comments

I just wanted to take a moment to say how lucky I am.

For the last 13+ years, I have had the most loving, supportive, goofy, and epically-bearded man as a partner.

Neither of us is perfect, but he makes my life pretty damned close to it. Like all couples, we have our arguments and issues, but we always seem to find a way to work things out.

While he doesn’t share my passions in life (writing, art, reading, books, etc.) he has never once failed to support me in every single effort I’ve endeavored to take. He even supports my silly obsession with a video game at almost 30 years old. ;)

He’s never once made me feel bad (on purpose) about being held back by health problems, and has always tried so hard to remind me that I’m not a burden on him when I often feel like I am. I know it is not easy to make a life with someone like me, but he works hard every day to make it happen. He works hard every day to make sure I feel valued.

When I developed lipodystrophy and gained 60+ lbs over the course of like four months, he embraced my new body when I couldn’t. He’s helping me to learn to love myself the way I am — to see myself the way he sees me. It’s a long, hard battle, but I’m getting there.

I am so thankful to have someone like him in my life – to be loved by someone like him. Some people go their whole lives searching for what we found when we were 14/15 years old. It’s never lost on me how lucky I am.

This is a photo of us at my aunt’s wedding yesterday.

When I first looked at it, I only saw my fat face and my double chin, but the more I looked at it the more I saw the strength we have as a unit — as a family (with our doggy child :)). I began to see what he sees in me because I’ve always seen it in him.

JD, I know you’ll never read this because you don’t read my blog, but I love you and thank you for everything (even when you’re annoying and piss me off ;)). You’re the best.

Always.

June 2nd  -  655 notes  -  J  Comments

ilivetowriteandinspire:

Robert Gregory Browne

May 30th  -  3 notes  -  J  Comments
The creative adult is the child who has survived.
— Ursula K. Le Guin
May 30th  -  2 notes  -  O  Comments

Quickly, Quickly!

Just thought I’d jot down a few things that have been happening recently/things I’ve been thinking about and make it a blog post. Yep, this is happening.

  • I have once again put the novel on hold because I had a breakthrough idea for the final (as of right now) piece for my little collection.
  • I hope I can actually put said collection out in e-book format soon. And by soon I mean, like, within the next couple of months.
  • Phew! That’s a big deal — letting actual people, strangers, read my work!
  • My lover enlightened me about my artwork. Instead of focusing so much on what I think other people want to see from me, I should be painting/drawing what I want to see from me and if someone else enjoys it too, yippee! If not, I’m still creating things I am proud of, and that’s what really matters. This is one of the billions of reasons I love him so much. :)
  • I know so many incredibly talented people, and it inspires me so much.
  • I am still terribly sad about the loss of Thaddeus, but I’m okay. I feel it deeply at night when I’m so used to seeing him wheeling and rubbing his sweet little nose through the bars of his cage. I still can’t really look at photos of hedgehogs or anything, but I’m getting there.
  • On a lighter note, I don’t think my psychiatrist knows what a hedgehog is because he kept calling him “your dog”. By the end of the visit, I just quit trying to correct him, but instead just smile and nod. XD
  • I am so stupidly, ridiculously excited for Animal Crossing: New Leaf. I’ve been counting down the days like a kid at Christmas. I don’t think I’ve been this excited for anything in a very, very long time, and I don’t quite know if that’s sad or not. BTW, my AC:NL blog is Ealanta Crossing.

Okay. I am very tired (it’s 5:07AM) and my butt really hurts from sitting in this chair for hours, so I’m gonna end this now. Smell ya later.

May 30th  -  3 notes  -  J  Comments

This is what I look like when I should be writing, but I get distracted by Tumblr.

May 26th  -  3 notes  -  J  Comments

I painted this with my beautiful Aunt Pat in mind. For some reason, it just makes me think of her. :) I hope you like it as much as I do.

May 26th  -  5,670 notes  -  J  Comments
Dante: Where would you go for an epic adventure?
William Shakespeare: Favorite thing about language or writing?
Robert Burns: What part of your home are you most proud of?
William Blake: Are you religious? Spiritual? Atheist? Agnostic?
Alfred Tennyson: Who is your hero?
Elizabeth Barrett Browning: What would your dream love be like?
John Keats: What inspires you?
Edgar Allan Poe: What do you have nightmares about?
Walt Whitman: Where is your favorite place to be outdoors?
Dorothy Parker: Favorite way to jazz things up?
Robert Frost: How do you comfort yourself when you're down?
Sylvia Plath: What do you hope to achieve in your lifetime?
May 24th  -  3 notes  -  J  Comments

Just thought I’d share my most recent painting with you guys. 😊

May 20th  -  8 notes  -  O  Comments
May 19th  -  1 note  -  J  Comments

Hello everyone. I figured it was time I updated this thing.

First of all, here are my Sketches of the Day. It’s not all of them since I last posted because Tumblr will only let me upload 10 at a time and I don’t feel like uploading them all to Flickr or something and linking them. I feel like most of you have probably seen them already either on Facebook or Instagram…

But yeah, I am still having a lot of fun drawing every day. I’ve taken a couple of days off here and there because “real life” has gotten in the way, but for the most part I’ve been pretty good about sticking with it. It’s really cool to see how I’ve progressed since starting, that’s for sure. It’s also really interesting to see how some days drawing comes pretty naturally to me, but then other days it’s like the hardest thing in the world. Do other artists feel that way sometimes? Like your hands just don’t want to cooperate with what your brain is telling them? Strange.

In other news, I have been very sad for the last few days because my sweet hedgehog, Thaddeus Otto, passed away on the 16th. It was really sudden, but it happened quickly and seemingly without pain. I’ve had a hard time being creative since he passed… My animals are like my children, so when I lose one it’s really painful. He was such a sweet and funny little man. I’ll always miss him… I keep falling into my routine with him and then getting a harsh reminder that he’s gone. Sucks. :(

I guess that’s all I really have to say for now. I’m okay, but definitely not feeling like myself. Hopefully things will be better the next post.

Oh, and I’d like to thank everyone that sent me kind messages when Thaddeus passed… You have no idea how much it has helped. I love you guys.

May 15th  -  1 note  -  O  Comments

I found your blog kind of haphazardly, but I must say I love your posts. I'm a writer (in the shape of a college student), and your posts have inspired me to devote myself again to writing every day this summer, especially to cope with my own bipolar symptoms. You are clearly a dedicated, passionate person; you're the kind of writer that really deserves to write. :)

Oh gosh. You’ve no idea how much I needed to hear something like that, so thank you so very much. I feel honored to have inspired you. :)

Good luck with your writing, especially around bipolar symptoms because I know how hard that is!